Give me a chance to explain myself. You see, even though for most people tolerance means to respect someone’s point of view without necessarily sharing it, for me it means that I can barely stand it. Yes, you are entitled to have your own opinion, but that does not mean I want to tolerate it.
Tolerance means that we can coexist together, not live together. To exist means to survive, to live a lifeless life without joy, trust or love. I’m sorry, but I’m not a lifeless being. That’s why instead of tolerating you, I want to understand you. I may know of your past, but that does not mean I completely understand where your point of view is coming from, or why is it so important to you what you believe. But that’s the thing, I want to understand your point of view. I don’t want to tolerate you, I want to understand you.
Lives have meaning because of the relationships we build throughout our time here on Earth. There are times of joy, just like there are times of sorrow. Friendships experience both, they endure both. I may still have a long way to go, but at least I’m willing to try. The road ahead will surely be bumpy and I can’t promise things won’t get complicated again, just like in any other relationship. But I’m willing to try.
I’m aware this does not justify the way I said some things or my behavior, this is not a way to ask for forgiveness. I am merely explaining what my thoughts are. What I ask from you is time and for a chance to grow, an opportunity to learn how to understand you and others who think alike.
I do appreciate our friendship, there’s no denying in that. I do want you in my life, so we can live as friends, not coexist as human beings. Yet, I do comprehend how insensible I was and for that, I’m sorry.